最后一块蛋糕——作者:南山

2013年02月26日   编辑王晓莉

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        中国人的习俗,正月十五日是一年中第一个月圆之夜,也是一元复始,大地回春的夜晚。而今天的元宵节之夜又是一个特殊的日子,团圆,这个美好的祝愿,被明明幸运的得到了。
        幸福的张爱明,这个人见人爱的小明明,依偎在温暖的怀抱里,开心的说着,尽情的唱着。也许他还不会懂得,今天,他就要离开他生活了近四年的天使之家,从这个给予他新的生命的地方,飞向那个属于他的,给予他完整生命历程的,一个新的家,他将在这个新家里开始他全新的生活。

In Chinese customs, lunar January fifteen is the first full moon nigh in one year , the night is as the new year begins, spring returns to the earth. Today 's night of the Lantern Festival is a special day, family reunion, the best wishes, it lucky to have by Mingming.

Happy Zhang Aiming, the cute little mingming, nestled in the warming arms, enjoy singing. He may be un know, today, he will leave angel home where his life for nearly four years , to fly to that belongs to him, to give him the whole life process, a new home, he will begin his new life in the new home.

Lenses playback -- from the angel mother website data:

 
        镜头回放——引自天使妈妈网站的资料:
        张爱明,出生于2008年9月19日,在医院出生,状况:轻微耳聋、轻微脑瘫。 由于早产儿、低体重儿、新生儿窒息和肺透明膜病(已治愈)被亲生父母遗弃在医院的ICU病房, 医院在找不到父母、没有钱的情况下坚持给孩子治疗,给了孩子再一次生命,感谢这家医院! 但是孩子由于没有父母,被迫在医院里生活了7个半月的时间!!孩子明显偏瘦,7个半月的男孩子体重只有13斤!!!于2009年05月07日来到天使之家,是天使之家第30个孩子。

Zhang Aiming, born in September 19, 2008, was born in a hospital, status: mild deafness, mild cerebral palsy. Due to premature, low birth weight, neonatal asphyxia and pulmonary hyaline membrane disease ( cured ) biological parents were abandoned in the hospital ward ICU, the hospital can not find the adhere to treatment of children, parents do not have the money, give the child life again, thanks to the hospital! But children with no parents, forced to live in hospital 7 months time!! The children were underweight, 7 and a half months boys weighed only 13 pounds!!! In 2009 05 months 07 days came to the family of the angel, angel 's family of thirtieth children.

 
 
 
镜头回放之——我和明明
        2010年1月的一天,我在九龙花园的天使之家寄养点,第一次见到了这个很瘦弱的,还只会在地上爬的小帅哥。抱着他,能够清楚的听到他随着呼吸时胸腔里发出呼噜呼噜的声音。这个小家伙给人们留下的最深印象就是他的笑,见到你,就会毫无保留的给你一个甜甜的笑脸,开心时,他那咯咯的笑声能让你的心都醉了。那年带着明明去河南“省亲”时,曾经接触过明明的保育员听说明明来了,都兴奋的围拢了过来,她们都亲切的用标准的河南乡音叫着他的名字,她们太喜欢他了。那么长的一段时间过去了,她们仍能够这样清晰的记住他,就是因为他那招牌式的笑脸。一位这里的康复师,还从手机里调出明明很小时候的照片让大家看。不用说,那肯定是明明的一张笑脸。因为体质的虚弱,玩耍和爬行都会消耗很大的体力,所以,经常在喂饭时会看到,他吃着吃着,就进入了梦乡。

Lenses playback -- I and Mingming 

2010 January day, he gave me the deepest impression in the first time in angle home :very thin, can only crawl, especially his happy smile .i Hold him, can clearly hear him breathing. That year I went to Henan with mingming, a nurse that once looked after mingming came and excited huddled up, they are friendly shouted his name,. So long a period of time in the past, they can still clearly remember him, because of his trademark smile. A rehabilitation division also showed childhood photos with many smiling faces for everyone to see. Because of physical weakness, playing and crawling will consume much energy, so,often in the Fed will see, he ate the food, went to sleep.

 
站起来抱
        明明喜欢让南山叔叔抱,不管是在室内玩还是外出游。有时,因为腰疼的原因,我会坐在地板上抱他玩,可这家伙可不是好骗的,他会使劲拉着我的胳膊,可怜巴巴的说:起来,站起来抱。哈哈,也只好恭敬不如从命吧。

Stand up and hold 

mingming like to be Nanshan uncle hold, whether go out or in the indoor to playing.Sometimes, because of the reason of lumbago, I would sit on the floor with him play together, but this guy is not easy to cheat, he can pull my arm and said : get up, stand up and hold. Ha- ha, to being satisfied with him.

 
南山叔叔的眼镜
        明明很喜欢玩我的银镜,不管的平光的还是黑墨镜,都会玩的不亦乐乎,那会,他还会经常把镜腿朝上套在自己的耳朵上。自己戴爽了,还会给他的好朋友们戴上,就是连他最喜欢的小马,都能有幸分享他的这个快乐。每次外出,南山叔叔的东西看的可紧了,谁也休想动一下。一次,抱他在电梯里,人多,把我的眼镜碰掉了。明明当时就对那位帮我捡起眼镜的叔叔急了,大声喊道:南山叔叔的眼镜,南山叔叔的眼镜!并且一把就把眼镜给抢了过来,歪歪的套在了我的脸上。逗得电梯里面的人都笑了。

Nanshan uncle’s glasses 

Mingming likes playing my glasses, regardless of the level or black sunglasses, will play awfully, that would, he would often taken glasses legs up on own ear. As well as to his friends to wear, everyone can be shared his happiness beside he most like ponies. Every time go out, things can be tight for Nanshan uncle , everyone cannot going to move. First, hold him in the elevator, many people, , shouted to a man who picked up my glasses: , Nanshan uncle’s glasses,! put on glasses and in my face quickly,. Makeing the elevator laughed.

 

 
 
 
南山叔叔的相机
        跟我接触的时间长了,明明也很喜欢摆出一幅拍照的架势来。时不时的举起相机玩具或手机,煞有介事的对着你拍上一番,颇有专业风范呢。
通常,孩子们对某种新见到的东西都会产生好奇心,进而会伸手摸摸或想抢过来玩玩。而天使之家的孩子们却很少来抢我的相机玩,最多也就凑过脸来,看看相机里自己的模样。这也与明明和包子的以身作则有很大的关系。每当有小家伙伸手想抓相机的时候,明明或包子就会郑重其事的说:“这是南山叔叔的相机,谁都不能动。动坏了,就不能给咱们照相了。”还别说,那些小家伙们还真听他们。
 
 

Nanshan uncle’s camera 

Contacts with me for long time, it is also very likes showing the actions to take photo. Raised the camera toys or mobile phone , looks like very professional

Usually, children have stronger curiosity ,.but the angel home children rarely to grab my camera to play, most have a look own face in the camera .because of making oneself an example by mingming or Qian Lujia . When kid wanted to grab the camera, they said: "this is the Nanshan uncle’s camera , if moving is bad, not to take photo for us. " really all obey to them.

 
 
 
 
南山叔叔的手机
        每次见面,几乎都有一个标准程序,那就是要听我的手机。每次见到我,明明会指着我腰上的手机说:“南山叔叔,我要听淅沥沥”。这淅沥沥是什么呢?这是我手机里专为晓宇存留的保留曲目《三月里的小雨》,里面的一句歌词是:“三月里的小雨淅沥沥沥下个不停”。经常,小哥俩为了抢听这歌曲,会争的不可开交。而明明一般会在听一会后,就把手机送到晓宇手里。

Nanshan uncle's mobile phone 

Every time we meet, listening to < little rain in March>was a standard procedure. The song repertoire for Qing Xiaoyu, ,mingming put the mobile phone to Xiao Yu’s hand.

 
 
南山叔叔身上的唐老鸭
        我自己是个对生活很粗心的人,自己有一件毛衣,从来就没注意过是什么图案。有一次,明明在整洁小教室里翻啊翻啊的,把所有玩具几乎翻了个变。尽管保育员姐姐再三警告,他还是我行我素,继续耐心的翻找着什么。终于,他在一个角落里翻出了一本小画册,举着它,晃晃悠悠的走到我的跟前,刷的一下撕下了封面,贴在了我的胸前,笑嘻嘻的说:“唐老鸭,跟南山叔叔的一样。”原来,我穿的毛衣有唐老鸭的图案,他撕下的那个封面也是唐老鸭的图案,为了这个图案,明明真是豁出去,爱谁谁谁了。
 
 

Donald duck on the Nanshan uncle’s clothes 

I'm a very careless about the life, i have a sweater, never noiced what pattern. One time, Fling caution to the winds in looking for something, Although the nurse sister repeated warnings, , Finally, he found a small pictures in a corner,

我长本事啦

         在天使之家这个温暖的港湾的爱心呵护下,明明的身体也一天天的强壮了起来。小脸也圆了,肚子也鼓起来了。一天,我刚一进门,明明就拉着我的手,把我拽到了康复区的扶杆处,高兴的对我说:“南山叔叔,你看,我长本事啦。”然后,双手把着横杆,接连做了好几个引体向上的动作,看的我是连称自愧不如。我知道,没有保育员和康复师们的辛勤付出,没有明明那坚强的泪水,是不可能做到现在的这个状况的! 

He grew up

. At Angel house under the care of the body, it also day by day stronger ,. One day, when I walked through the door, he took my hand and walked to the rehabilitation area ,than told me: " Nanshan uncle, you see, i grew up " Then, with his hands on the bar, has made several chinning motion,” no nurse and rehabilitation teachers to work hard, not mingming that strong tears, can't have this condition now!

 
 
明明的演唱会
        明明的个人演唱会您看过吗?如果没有,那您就是奥特(out)啦,这可是您的巨大损失和遗憾。明明有一种非常棒的演唱天赋,富有激情的现场氛围嗨翻了天。一次,站在练习行走的康复台上激情演绎的明明,觉得身边的旭旭影响了他的出境,把个旭旭推了个趔趄。明明那陶醉忘我的高亢激昂,那怀抱拖把吉它的一举手一投足,那手握玩具话筒的一招一式,最令人惊叹的是他还能够现场现编词且对上歌曲的节拍,惊得羽.泉连称:后生可畏,后生可畏啊!
我要上学去
明明有个爱不释手的小书包,每天背着它跑来跑去。不用谁催,无须谁叫,自己就早早的把包里他觉得必须的装备整理完毕,满怀信心的背上它,走向了他心目中向往的方向。
明明演唱会视频链接:

Mingming’s concert 

Do you join in the personal concert for mingming? If not, you are out style, He have a talent for singing very well, he always likes singing while playing the guitar also can wording and the song together.

I want to go to school

Mingming have a small bag that carrying it ran all day. He arranged the bag in advance, full of confidence on the back of it, than go to the direction in his heart

 
 
 
 
明明和晓宇
        这是一对特殊的小哥俩,同样是刚一降临人世就遭遇到同样的命运;同样的年龄;同样是来自河南;同样的身体状况。同样的爱笑;同样的在天使之家被大家所呵护和关爱。在我的心里具有同样的位置。所不同的,就是他们各自不同的血缘带给他们不同的性格和心理基因。
 

Mingming and Xiao Yu 

This is a special little elder brother , They have many of the sameplace.for instance: the same fate; the same age; from Henan is the same as the physical condition. The same love to laugh; the same at Angel house were all the love and care. Have the same position in my heart. But they have different personalities and psychological gene.

 


        从我到天使之家的第一次起,这两个小家伙对我的竞争就成了一种固定规则。从我一进门起,两个人就开始了爬的快的比赛,先爬到我身边的兴高采烈,落后的撇嘴哭鼻子。为了争到我怀里的好位置,两个人又会你推我搡,互不相让。喂饭也要争出个版权来,经常是摆出个三角阵来,一人一勺总算公平了吧。要是外出晒个太阳啥的,那更是件原则的事,通常是一手抱一个,放下谁也不干,可怜俺那温柔的水蛇腰啊。
 

From me to Angel home for the first time, these two small guys on my Compared with Xiaoyu, His illness lighter, rehabilitation is better He is very good, often take care of Xiaoyu. Whether to eat or play he always shared with him Love, can create a miracle! Verified again in mingming’s body. This year has been convicted of serious illness, was sentenced to the deaf, and nearly caused blindness in theaccident today, alive and kicking the soar to great heights.

 
 
 
        相比起晓宇来,明明的症状要轻了许多,康复的效果也超出了早期的想象。与同龄的孩子的那种见到好吃的或好玩的都要去争抢的天性不同,明明从小就显现出一种淳朴厚道的品质。特别的对他的好兄弟晓宇,更是关照有加。不管是吃的还是玩的,刚会走路的明明都会踉踉跄跄的跑过来给晓宇送来一份。
 
 
        爱,可以创造奇迹!在明明的身上再次得到了验证。这个当年被判有各种严重病症,被判失聪,由于意外险些造成对眼睛不可逆的伤害等等坎坷的弃儿,今天,活蹦乱跳的展翅高飞了。
今天是元宵佳节,一个吉庆的好日子。下午,在天使之家,一场专为明明举行的伴随着欢笑和泪水的欢送会。天使妈妈的工作人员、天使之家的保育员、爱心志愿者们纷纷为明明送上一声声真挚的祝福。明明那慷慨激昂的现场感言,高亢嘹亮的“虫儿飞”,那激情四溢的江南style,把现场气氛推到了高潮。后来明明的情绪突然低落了下来,聪明的小家伙明白今天的蛋糕意味着什么。

Today is the Lantern Festival, Farewell party was held for him ,Angel mother staff, angel home helpers, volunteers who sending a sound sincere blessing to him, he has having speech and resounding loud " bug flying ", the enthusiasm to South style, the scene atmosphere to a climax. Later, when the mood suddenly low down, the smart little guy understands what it means to today's cake.

 

 
 
       
        再见,天使之家,我永远的爱你们! 

Goodbye, angel home, I love you forever

 

        离别总是伴随着泪水,这泪水是饱和着幸福的泪水。他寄语着众多关爱天使之家孩子们的所有善良的人们的一颗颗真挚的祈愿。正如佛语所云:“所以生离苦,皆从痴惑生。如人随路行,中道暂相逢。”我想,这里的痴惑,就是我们对孩子们的那份爱。”相逢也罢,离别也罢,大家的心愿都是一样的,只要孩子们能够幸福。 
        诗人李白在《送别范宣 》里写道:“此地伤心不能道,目下离离长春草。 送尔长江万里心,他年来访南山老”。 哈哈,也许在南山的有生之年能有幸再见到这些天涯两望的孩子们! 
        今晚,一路绽放的烟花和爆竹声陪伴着他们走向幸福的怀抱,祝福明明,祝福天使之家的孩子们!,祝福天下所有的孩子都有个幸福的家!

Parting is always accompanied by the tears, the tears is saturated with tears of happiness. it sent word to all love and care for Paying attention to Angel home children people. Our wish is the same, as long as the children to be happy. 

The poet Li Bai wrote inSee Fan Xuan off: " the sad can’t speak out, now green grass. Send you the heart of the Changjiang River and the Great wall, he will visit Nanshan in future ". Ha-ha, maybe in the Nanshan the rest of one's life can have the opportunity to see the children!

Tonight, a fireworks and firecrackers accompanied them to the embrace of happiness, blessing you, wish Angel home all children! , wish all the children have a happy home!

 

 
今天情绪恢复了一些,续写几笔后记:
        通常,要是没有特殊情况,送孩子去车站是俺的规定动作。但是昨天下午,当看到一向活泼的明明吃完蛋糕后那种失落的神情,亲历过多少次生离死别都一向不曾流泪的我,顿时无法控制住自己的情绪,抱着晓宇躲在楼道的角落里。晓宇看着我,小嘴一撇一撇的忍住不让自己哭出来,还一遍一遍的用小手为我擦去脸上止不住流淌的泪水,看着就更让人心酸。最终,我还是选择了转身离开,没有送明明去车站。
        后续的发展证实了我的这个选择虽然是不妥的,但是正确的。从知道明明有了收养家庭的消息的第一时间,我就给邓姐打电话预定送行的名额,我清楚人员有限,但坚决要求自费去送行到最后一站。这个要求把邓姐她们弄的很为难,再三给我做工作才使我放弃了送行的想法。不妥之处是因为每次的送行不仅仅是代表了个人的情感,还有着为天使之家及所有关注天使之家孩子的那些爱心朋友们带回他们的期待与关注的职责。所谓的正确选择,是从送行的朋友们发回的微博及群聊中得知:几乎所有送行的朋友最后都崩溃了。这个情景恐怕也是几年来所有送走孩子时所没有的!
        也许,朋友们会很欣慰的说:我们的付出至少给孩子们带来了情感上的温暖和快乐。可是,孩子们又把我们改变了多少呢?可能很少会有谁去留意过这一点!
         关掉了手机,坐在地铁的车厢里,泪水一遍遍的流下来。引得对面的两位小姑娘一直在嘀咕:是失恋,还是......,我甚至还感觉到了她们在用手机拍照,随她们去吧。
        回到家里,回想着三年多来的记忆闪回,码出了上面的那些文字。
        近期,又会有几个孩子陆陆续续的离开天使之家,奔向他们新的家庭。这也正是天使妈妈和所有爱他们的人们所期望的最好结果。在这些孩子们欢天喜地的时刻,那几个情况比较严重的象晓宇这样的孩子,心理上的冲击的相当严重的,他们虽然还是孩子,但是也已经逐渐长大,心里什么都明白,什么都能够感受到,什么也都要靠自己去调整。
        前些时候当他们见到明明的“爸爸”的时候,党会紧紧的抱着“爸爸”的腿,仰头送上她最甜美的笑脸,一直不肯松开。晓宇则一反常态,完全不见了他对陌生人的那种秉性,大哭着爬向明明“妈妈”的怀里。这些相对困难些的孩子,面对可以看到的的幸福,都在充分发挥自己的天性和心智在努力着争取着。看到这情景,怎能不叫人动容!
        经与邓姐沟通同意,上次去天使之家时,我让晓宇改变了对我的称呼。三年多的时间了,晓宇由于语言功能的限制,那种别的孩子已经很容易的叫出来的礼节性的称呼,他还无法清晰的表达出来,也就是说,他还从没有叫过我什么。而这个称呼对他来说还是比较容易的。当我问他愿不愿意以后这样叫我时,晓宇很高兴的使劲点着头,并且叫的很好。我知道,这种称呼的改变不仅仅是一种简单的符号而是给自己增加了更多的责任。以前,每次去天使之家,那种近在眼前却很少  全身心的照顾到晓宇的情景,对他的情感伤害很大。以后,我会尽可能的多给予晓宇一些陪伴,多带他出去转转,让这个孩子在天使之家生活的更开心一些。
 
Today mood recovered a bit, writting a few notes:
Usually, if no special circumstances, I am accustomed to sending kid to trip station. But yesterday afternoon, whenI see mingming after eating the cake that loss of expression, I was unable to control my emotions, with Xiao Yu hiding in the corner. Xiao Yu looked at me and was crying. Finally, I chose to leave, did not send it to the station.
 
From know the news that mingming has new family, I contacted Eva Deng requirements to the last station, Finally I gave up the idea in her persuasion ,almost all off friends finally collapsed. This scenario is not perhaps several years!
 
Recently, there will be several children continued to leave angel home, to their new family. This is the best result angel mother and all love their expected. In these children to be full of joy of the moment, the situation is more serious for children like Xiang Xiaoyu, psychological impact is quite serious, although they are still children, but also has gradually grown up, What all understand, what all can feel, what have to rely on themselves to adjust.
 
The other children to see mingming’s father., Dang hui hold " Dad " legs with sweetest smile, and refused to release. Xiao Yu Climbed to the mother’s arm for mingming crying. These relatively difficult children, face can see the happiness, all in full play to its own nature and mental efforts in striving for. this scene very thouching
 
Eva Deng agreed with communication, last to Angel home, I let Xiao Yu changed my name. More than three years of time, Xiao Yu due to language limitations, courtesy to call out the names that other children have been very easy, to express he is not clear, that is to say, he never called me what. And the call for him is relatively easy. When I asked him if he would like call me, Xiao Yu was very glad to energetically nodded his head, and side “good”. I know, this name change is not only a simple symbol but to add more responsibility. Before, every time I go to the angel house, the kind of close at hand but seldom devote himself to Xiao Yu's situation, hurt his feelings very. Later, I will be as much as possible given Xiaoyu some company, to bring him out, let the children live in the angel home more fun.